
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Stuck in the Middle...with ME
Have you ever felt...stuck? Like you don't know which way to go or you feel like you don't have a way to go?These last few days I've been feeling stuck. And, I've come to an interesting awareness about this feeling. I've often thought feeling stuck meant I didn't have any options. What I'm realizing, is that I can also feel stuck when I have plenty of options, but am unclear about which way I want to go.
I actually had a headache yesterday and the only thing I could attribute it to was overthinking. For the past few years, the path before me felt so one directional. I was a studio owner and I had a business to grow. Sure, there were other things I envisioned doing, but it felt like I was never able to get to them or that they would be somewhere pretty far down the road...
Since letting go of the studio, I've felt a renewed sense of possibility in my life. This has been exciting to allow myself explore all of the different possibilities/paths I could potentially pursue. From teaching Yoga in Asia, to becoming certified in massage therapy, to living in Dallas, teaching Yoga in corporate America, DVDs, workshops, moving to another city in the US...there are no limits! At the same time, as exciting as it's been to dream and contemplate all the possibilities, I've also realized the importance of balance with everything. It's great to consider all we can do, but if we become consumed by all of our considerations and thinking, we may just end up with a headache, or ultimately, feeling stuck in a state of confusion or overwhelm.
The past few days, I've been in this place. So, then, how do we come out of this place once we realize we're in it? The first step is always awareness. Then, it's asking for what we want. But, what if I don't know what we want? Make the best choice possible with what you have and what you do know. It's called taking a risk. I'm currently working part-time at a wonderful spa in Dallas called, The Garden Spa and Gallery. It's an incredible group of women who are passionate about helping people to feel great through massage therapy, facials and more.
So, as I'm sitting here today, I happened to look at the calendar on the wall. It's a calendar with quotations by the great 13th century Sufi poet, Rumi. The one for this month says:
"The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. You must ask for what you really want." - Rumi
I realized this is the only thing I have yet to do. All of the opportunities are before me because I've had enough awareness of what I want to attract them into my life. But, now it's time to choose and to ask and be specific about what I want.
Sometimes it can feel scary to ask for what we want. Perhaps, because we know on some level, we will get it. Then, what if we don't want it? This is what life is all about...discovery...as we discover what we "want" and "don't want", we ultimately discover ourselves in the journey... And, we can always make another choice.
So, may you ask for what you really want as you awaken to a New Year of your life with infinite possibilities...
Namaste!
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