Well, let’s see…much has transformed since I last wrote about the ‘wondrous’ wallet episode. The breakdown of losing, and then finding, my wallet shined light on many situations in my life where I had been neglecting to listen to my intuition.

So, I’ve spent the last week and a half growing through these changes. What supported me greatly in going through this particular experience of loss was The Chapter 7 Webcast on Oprah.com from A New Earth, by Eckhart Tolle. This part is in the first 10 minutes of the webcast. If you haven’t been watching these webcasts…it’s time to join the awakening and listen. There are over several hundred thousand people worldwide who are participating in these weekly webcasts and experiencing amazing shifts and transformations in their lives. I have found every class to be incredibly beneficial. These webcasts have also supported me in making some of the changes I needed to make in a peaceful way, particularly with a shift in a relationship…

Here is the excerpt which was so powerful for me:

“Before you ask any other questions, first ask the most fundamental question of your life…Who am I? You are not the ego. When you become aware of the ego in you, it doesn’t mean you know who you are, it means you know who you are not. But, it is through knowing who you are not that the greatest obstacle to truly knowing yourself is removed.”

The best starting point is to ask, Who aren’t I?

When you realize who you are not, then suddenly who you are becomes revealed to you. Who you are cannot easily be put into words, because if it could it could be answered in one simple sentence, and then everybody could repeat that answer and believe that they know who they are.

So, we start with knowing who we are not. And that begins for people, sometimes with loss…if they lose something, a valuable they had identified with, or death comes into their lives, some kind of breakdown or disaster happens…sometimes those people suddenly awaken. Some thing has been taken away from them that they had identified with for many years, that had become part of their sense of self. And, if something very fundamental that has been part of your sense of self has been removed…death, loss, someone close to you who dies, then at first of course it leads to enormous suffering and you feel as though part of you had died also.

For some people that happens even if they lose posessions, because they were so identified with their posessions that when their posessions are removed they feel there’s nothing left of me. Another situation related to posessions is social position. If people fall from some high social position, then these people, it can be extremely painful if they had become totally identified either with their posessions or social position and they are suddenly faced with a kind of huge emptiness in their lives. And the question arises…I’m nobody anymore?

And this is a decisive point where they can either continue to resist and suffer, resist what has happened internally…complain about it, tell themselves a story about it, how it’s all collapsed. Or, they can suddenly come to a point of acceptance of what happened. And, acceptance of the present moment. So, the thing that was so important in their lives, actually left behind…I sometimes compare it to…you look at a person’s life, it’s a tapestry…it consists of all kinds of things that one identifies with…and when a great loss happens it’s almost as if suddently there is a huge hole in that tapestry of my life. And, that is painful when you identify with the tapestry. But, behind the tapestry there is a Light that shines through. Because, without the Light there wouldn’t be anything at all. That’s why you can even see your life. Without the Light of Consciousness…nothing would be.

I’m using a kind of analogy…so when you don’t resist…then this hole that’s suddenly appeared in this tapestry of your life…there’s a light that shines through that. There’s suddently a peace that comes when the emptiness, that is left behind by the form that has dissolved, is not resisted internally. And, then through that empty space there comes what the Bible calls…the peace that passes all understanding. Because you can’t explain suddenly…and people have reported that this has happened to them. They lost…sometimes in some cases…everything…they suffered at first…and then suddenly an inner shift happened. They accepted.